What to do when you have no inspiration, and all you feel is resistance towards writing? Exactly, you guessed it: you start writing!! About what? It does not matter, because you have to start somewhere, to get the ball rolling. Once you get into the Flow, it will start happening on its own again. But until that happens you just gotta stay persistent and write about anything that comes up.
I have had the same “Writer’s Block” for the past couple of weeks now, every time I was thinking about writing something an excuse would pop up. And they were good, valid ones as well. But they also remained just that, excuses. At some point you just have to recognize that you are just coming up with ways to not be writing. All that you are doing, really, is making it harder and harder on yourself to start again.
Now, let the real stuff begin. Or has it already started? Have I been going into that flow already, that illustrious rush of inspiration. There is really no telling, as words will always be coming, you just have to listen. As I am writing now, I also feel a huge resistance within myself, not liking that I actually started to write about something. Or nothing, if you really look at it.
In the past few weeks I have been making progress actually, I have passed all my exams, started studying for the next ones too already. Also the U16 basketball team that I coached got National champions, that, by the way, is quite a cool, movie-like story to tell. Maybe for another time. And, also, last week I have been initiated into the “First Degree of the Usui System of Natural Healing”, or in short the “Frist Degree of Reiki”. Reiki, in essence, is healing through the hands, by passing on the universal energy. It might sound a little out there, but you would have to experience it to know the amazing and relaxing results of it.
For me it feels like I took a step in the right direction, it feels like I got a little bit closer to myself and my own passions. That, in my opinion, is one of the most important things you can do. To live a life that is open, genuine, and honest. That you do things that fulfill you and bring joy into your life. By doing that, I believe you will get closer to yourself each time. That you get to know yourself better as well by doing those things.
Another thing that will bring you closer to yourself, and will make you feel more alive, is doing the things that make you feel uncomfortable. Doing the risky stuff. Because in the situations where you feel the most fear and resistance are the situations where there is most to be learned and experienced. Doing things you are uncomfortable with will actually help you to grow as a person. For me the things that call up the most resistance in my life are definitely studying for school and writing, believe it or not.
I honestly loath studying, even though I’m pretty good at it, I really don’t like it. And it is an everyday struggle to get myself to study. But also writing. I would probably write every day if I would resist to give in to my excuses. And when I actually sit down and start writing it always feels good. It never fails to fulfill me.
So I guess the message from this little brain dump is: Do the things you fear the most and feel the most resistance towards, you will feel better in the end.
If you have read this far, I want to really thank you for sticking with me!